Its OK to not be OK

Today I asked for help.

Its OK to ask for help.

Over the past few months I have had an amazing support network of my husband, family and friends who have not once turned me away when I have gone to them. I have never been ashamed of going to them because what I/we have gone through is natural and I am not afraid to talk about it. In fact, talking has helped me heal, for the most part.

However there has come a time where I have realised myself that this support network is not enough, they are not professionals.

I am very lucky that my employer offers a fantastic service called the Employee Assistance Programme. I gave them a call and talked them through how I was feeling and at the end it was decided that I would be referred for 4 lots of 1 hour counselling sessions.

As hard as it was picking the phone up to make that call I am so bloody glad I did. It was hard to be brutal and talk about how I truly feel; they asked some quite invasive questions and made some comments on my answers which pretty much broke me as they really hit the nail on the head.

However, now I am really looking forward to going to see someone completely impartial and get everything off my chest. Hopefully someone who can help me control my feelings more which some days are completely unpredictable and to difficult to control.

I am also hoping that changing to a positive mindset will help prepare my body better for next time <3 there will be a next time!

Over the past few months I have been collecting some motivational pictures which I browse when I am feeling a bit overwhelmed... I'll pop them on for all of you in the hope they can help someone else.

Please dont ever be ashamed of telling someone that you are not OK. It is not healthy to keep things bottled up if you really are not coping. My door will always be open for those who need it.

Remember, its OK to not be OK.